I’m struggling. I’m struggling and I can’t even really explain why or what that means. I think it’s partially because my I’ve been missing my financial goals lately. Not drastically but enough to have to make adjustments I would rather not have made. I’ve been undisciplined. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Also, like I mentioned in a post I decided not to make public back in November, I’ve been listening to too much news again. Some of that garbage makes me so angry and I resolved to myself when I dumped Facebook and most of my other social media that life was too short to go through life being pissed off.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Another reason is that I’m looking too far into the future when I have the chance to retire. I’m still ten years away from doing that but I’ve been dwelling on it at the expense of living each day to the fullest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yet another reason is that, despite how much I tell myself I’m doing fine, I’d really love the companionship of a good woman but that’s a psychological horror show. My self-image is completely shattered. Most of the time it goes something like “I’ll never get the girl I want so why bother?” (Tamber, Linda, Monique). It doesn’t help when I find out girls I did like and who turned me down later expressed regrets about having done so (Jaime, Debby) or I completely missed the obvious (Christina, Christy, Celestine.) By the time I finally managed to get the girl I wanted (or at least thought I wanted at the time) my lack of self worth as a mate was so thoroughly ingrained that my thoughts had become “Get what you can out of this and bail before she finds out you aren’t worth shit.” (Melissa)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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